major backlog

I have about 5 months worth of backlog posts. To be honest with you, the past couple of months have been very uninspiring. It's not that there's a lack of material to write about, it's more of me not being motivated to blog because of my current situation (please refer to my previous entry). And I'm really sorry, and not meaning to offend anyone--but I really don't enjoy living in the province. Maybe I am just a city girl. I don't really want to sound mean, but the pace of progress here is just soooooo slow. Seriously. Imagine, just so I can somehow feel that I'm back in the city (even just a tiny bit) I have to travel almost 100 km either to Santiago City or to Tuguegarao. It's not that I can't explain what I mean about 'slow progress'. I just don't want to, since I might just say things that would offend those who live here. I don't mean to think or say these things out of spite, it's more of out of frustration because there could be so much more improvements and changes that can be done but for whatever reason things are going at a slug-type pace.

I've been reading a lot of blogs lately in the hopes of finding inspiration, finding that spark to get me to write again. I'm not the type of blogger that writes entries as an 'obligation', because I started this blog as an outlet for me. Until now, it still is my outlet for creativity and emotions. Although I noticed that I'm becoming more careful with what I write. So ironic, considering that for something to be an 'outlet' there are should be no inhibitions but in my head while writing my entries I apply filters. And it takes me about 2-3 hours to write one entry because I have to go over it several times before actually posting. Gone are the days that all my brain farts are online for everyone to read. Does this come with age and maturity? I guess so...?

Anyway, I might as well try posting something later...maybe that'll start things up. Hopefully.