vietnam!!! :)

As a graduation gift, my parents are going to send me and my brother to Vietnam this August. Wow. I've always wanted to visit an exotic country. Well, the Philippines is sort of exotic--not considering Metro Manila. But I've always perceived other Southeast Asian countries as way more exotic than the Philippines. I guess their cultures are more, umm...Asian? I dunno. Hahahaha :) Admit it. We're too Westernized to be considered Asian. Hahaha WTH. Anyway, I've been working on a list of places to visit when we're there. I plan on bringing my Holga with me. Where else to practice my newfound interest in lomography but in Vietnam, right? Hahaha :)

Will post another entry later..or tomorrow :)

sleep please

I. CAN'T. SLEEP. Ugh. I can't breathe, my body is aching in several areas, and I have a fever. Yet, I cannot sleep. WHY?!?!?!??!!??!? I really, really, REALLY WANT TO SLEEP. I turned off the lights in my room about 3 1/2 hours ago. I also turned off the t.v. I turned off my laptop, too. But nooooooo. I still can't seem to get myself to sleep. Hay Lord please help me.

Announcement: anyone interested to order cupcakes? Hahahahaha :)

cupcake mode

I'm hoping that cupcake orders will keep me busy for the next week and a half. If Coby's photog friend is available, I have a photoshoot this weekend for my cupcakes :)

Other than cupcakes, I plan on baking different kinds of cookies next week :) I have yet to decide what recipes to try first...For sure I'm going to try Butter Cookies. All this talk about cupcakes and cookies is making me a bit hungry. I don't really like sweets, but I LOVE cookies. Cupcakes are okay...Hahaha :p

Watch out for my cupcake multiply account...maybe in a couple of weeks okay na :)

siiiiiick.

Yeap..I feel sick right now. I was feeling fine when I got home, then after a couple of hours I felt like I was coming down with something. Another hour passed, then I realized I had a fever. Until now actually, I'm still feverish. I know I should be resting now but, like every night, I'm having trouble sleeping. It's weird, though...I was actually hyper when I got home and was feeling all OC. I had planned to make a list of all the books I have, and if ever I still felt like it I'd also fix my grandparents' albums..Yes, I'm THAT OC. Now, however, I feel like crap. Hahahaha :p

I hope I'll feel better in the morning. I have orders for cupcakes--3 boxes, I think. Ooooh...speaking of cupcakes...Is anyone interested to order? :) I have yet to post the price list on my multiply. I haven't had the photoshoot for my cupcakes yet, so I'm marketing them via word of mouth (c/o friends and family :p).

2:17 a.m.
Beer didn't help me fall asleep. It just made me feel worse. Hahahahaha :) I dunno what gave me the idea that drinking alcohol would actually help my sort-of-insomnia. Weaw. I wanna sleeeeeeeeeeeeep!!! :s ....still feverish. Ugh.

2:40 a.m
I'm so bored...Gah suggested I check out this site http://www.emotioneric.com/ HAHAHAHA!!! Very..ummm..amusing. Hahahahaha!

Giada on the boob tube

It's almost 2 a.m and I'm watching Everyday Italian with Giada de Laurentii on the Food Network. Obviously, I can't sleep again. I'm not sure if it's because I'm going to have another OC attack, or if it's because I'm thinking about a lot of stuff lately that I haven't been able to organize these thoughts no matter how hard I attempt to even try to start organizing them. Phew. That was a long sentence. My high school English teacher would be very disappointed. Anyway...Where was I? Oh yeah...

Can I just say, it really is quite calming to watch cooking shows. Very inspiring, actually. I want to cook again...I mean, I want to hold get-togethers for my friends again. It's actually pretty fun to just sit down, enjoy a good meal, have great conversations with friends, then just end the night with dessert and maybe a glass of bubbly (the cheap one will suffice...I'm unemployed and have no moolah for the fancy schmancy ones).

I'm sorry for just blabbing on about whatever...Wait..I shouldn't even be apologizing because this is my blog and I have every right to write whatever I want.

I really should get some sleep.

new do! :)

Yay! :) I finally have short hair...and I really like the cut :) I don't look like a Danilo (sorry...inside joke with my close friends about my "dark ages").

I lost

Hahahaha! Yup..I'm not on my multiply fast anymore. I was planning to continue it..but then again, I already broke my YM fast--which goes with the multiply fast. I had to break my YM fast last night because a lot of people are looking for me already, and I haven't spoken to a lot of people in a long time. The semi-isolation from friends was slowly driving me into an almost-ermitanyo mode.

Oh well. Though now, I don't think I'll be as crazy about my Multiply as before. The week and a half that I wasn't able to check it made me realize that it really is so trivial.

What watching Made of Honor can do to you...

I'm so contemplative and full of realizations today...thanks to watching Made of Honor, the oodles of time to think (thanks to the number coding, I was stuck in San Juan until 7 p.m), and another emotion-filled & enlightening conversation with Dave. So here goes....

What's there to fear? Honestly, as young as I am--I fear being alone and not ending up with THE guy for me...my GB (God's Best). I guess I still have a lot of work to do in terms of trusting God with everything, including my love life. I've only been with two guys. The first was a total jerk, and the last guy...Well, he was everything I was praying for. Unfortunately, my relationship with my last boyfriend didn't work--not because of something bad...It just wasn't the right time, I guess. I'm still trying to figure out why things didn't turn out the way I wanted them to. You see, Dave is such a blessing. He really doesn't get why I say he is...but it's true. He really is a blessing.

I honestly don't have the strength to write down everything now, because I just had a very complex day--in that it was relaxing, fun, emotional, sad, and what have you (well, I didn't get mad today..that's good, right?). Can I just say, I never knew that there could possibly be a real Will and Grace type of relationship between exes..until after contemplating on the past couple of months, I realized that my relationship with Dave is sort of like that...except for the gay part. Actually, we're kinda like Will and Grace, but not really...I don't expect anyone to understand me (well, except for Dave of course). We have our own tandem. I love Dave to death and now, it's really sinking in that I should let go of him. We may not be for each other, in terms of ending up together...But I know deep in my heart that we'll always be friends. I'd rather lose him as a lover, than lose him as a friend. As cliche as this sounds, it's really true. He truly is one of the kindred spirits in my life (if you're familiar with Anne of Green Gables, you'll understand my usage of the term kindred spirits).

I wish I could post a picture of me and Dave..but no. Hahaha! The most decent picture we have is where we both look like we haven't had sleep in a week. Major eyebag alert. Though honestly, I really like it. I guess it's because it's our first picture together. I dunno...take away the eyebags, we look fine. Hahaha! Who am I kidding? We both looked bangenge. At the risk of Dave hating me forever, I won't post the picture. Hahaha :)

multiply fasting

Out of desperation, I've started blogging in this site. Yes, the title of my entry is correct. I'm on Multiply fast. For how long? Five weeks. A week has gone by already, so I have four weeks to go. Oh. I'm not just fasting on Multiply--add Yahoo Messenger. Like some of my friends, I've become attached to my Multiply account--to the point that I check it at least five times a day. It's addictive, especially if you don't have anything to do the entire day. Since I've graduated two Saturdays ago, I'm officially a bum and, as one of my classmates blatantly said during graduation after the University President's message, I'm "officially unemployed." Thank God my balikbayan cousin was here so I was a bit distracted from checking my site. Unfortunately, he just left two days ago and went back to the States. However, since I was anticipating that I'd suddenly run out of things to do after he left, I planned out this week. I started planning out this week last Wednesday or Thursday, I think. What day is it now? Tuesday? Okay..Five more days, then I would be fasting for two weeks already. I'm hoping time flies fast because seriously, I miss my Multiply site. I know it seems trivial, but I've gotten used to checking it everyday for the past 2 1/2 years already so now...my days seem incomplete without being able to see my contacts' new posts, and checking who've been looking at my albums. Yeah, it's come to the point that I've become quite anal about my Multiply. It's not funny anymore. Thus, the purpose of my fast. Multiply is an unhealthy attachment. With the week that has passed, I've come to realize that there are actually a lot of things I can (and should) do other than stare at the computer and obsess over my Multiply. For starters, I should be taking care of my application to the VSO Global Exchange Program. Then, I should be looking for a part-time job--though after today, it suddenly hit me that no one would really hire me if I just wanted to work for a month and a half.

Enough about Multiply. Can I just say......SKANDER KEYNES IS SO HOT...and he's only 16 >:) HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! He's turning 17 this year..so that makes me just four years older. Oh my God. I'm so sorry if I'm oggling (yeah, that's the term) over Skander, who's practically (and legally) still a kid...but he's just so...hot. Hahahaha! I still have a hangover from watching Narnia this afternoon. All the boys in the movie were BEAUTIFUL. They were just..oh God. My friend Mishi and I watched the movie at Promenade. After the movie, we just couldn't get over the fact that King Edmund (Skander Keynes), King Peter (William Moseley), and Prince Caspian (Ben Barnes) were all so gorgeous. Anyway, I really enjoyed the movie. The 2nd Narnia film, in general, was actually pretty good. I like it more than the first one (which I watched several times...and I still cry during some of the scenes even if I've watched for God-knows-how-many times).

...........I have a feeling I'll be blogging everyday until my Multiply fast is over.